||[Feb. 13th, 2006|07:24 pm]
Im fine. Im fine with us not talking. Im fine with you being mad at me because through out all of this i realized that i shouldnt even call you a friend if you dont trust my word over my friends. Seeing that i was the one who dated you and you dont trust me, but yet i spent money i dont have to see you. Why is that? Why was i trying to impress you when you have never done anything for me. You were just a waste of my time and im so angry that it took me so long to see that.
Ive started to write a lot more now and i miss typing in this thing and i miss reading your LJ's, I miss my friends, i miss get togethers, i miss meeting new people at Sharis, I miss smoking, I miss going to shows.
I hope everyone had a good Valentines Day. Im single, but i couldnt be happier, why should we express our love for one person just one day, why not everyday?
Im single and for the first time in a long time im okay with that. I dont need a boy, i dont need Brandon, I dont need Glen.
Im getting my number changed, ill make sure to give it out to those who have my current number...i just feel like a new person and i need to leave a lot of people behind. I know its odd, why get a new number? I guess i dont want him calling me ever again. Like i said, im fine with us never talking again, it ended on the worst note, but things like that sometimes happen. What did we expect?
Its time for me to meet a new boy and to be happy with what ive got in my life. I already wasted to much time on Brandon, Chase, Glen, and so on and so fourth.
Im single and that means going out to parties, drinking, being with my friends, going to bars, going on trips, meeting guys, not worrying about if hes cheating on me or what hes doing at that moment, fuck that shit...im 21...i need to be single right now, i have the rest of my life to be in a serious relationship and experience love.
Im 21...wow. I never thought i would reach 21. Im 21. It feels good to say that.
It felt good to go out this weekend and be with my girls, go to the strip bar, have a ciggerate, stay out until 6am, see Steve, catch up with some of the greatest people ive ever met, meet new friends (shanna), watch movies all day in PJs with my girls, see the ex and not feel any attachment to him, but just sex. Yes, sex...and Brandon thinks i like sex A LOT...its not my fault he lost his libido...there is nothing wrong with sex...its not like i sleep around...and if he thinks i cry to much, its because of him...because he frusterates me so much that he leaves me with no choice but to just cry sometimes.
I have great friends.
Im a 4.0 student AGAIN.
I dont really have anything to doubt myself on and im not waiting for you...if you call me, youre already to late...im not going to go visit you anymore...you doubted me, you dont trust me...why would i go see you?
Im tired of waiting for someone, i think its time someone waited for me.
James Blunt April 2 or 5th...
FOB, AAR, and FFTL-March something
Take Action Tour-March 31st!
NOW THATS LOVE!